Feel Me Fall by James Morris
Secrets and survival in the Amazon
It was supposed to be the trip of a lifetime.
Seventeen year-old Emily Duran is a survivor. The only survivor left after a plane crash in the Amazon jungle. Air Brazil was carrying 134 passengers, including 37 students, teachers, and chaperones. Six teens survived the crash, but now there’s only Emily.
Emily used to wonder how victims of plane crashes felt right in those moments before they were about to die but now she would give anything to not know. Everyone tells Emily how lucky she is to be alive.
Is it luck?
Memories can comfort you but they can also haunt you. And the more you try to forget, the more those memories stay. When you’re awake and when you’re asleep. Actually, sometimes sleeping is worse, as memories infiltrate your dreams turning them into terrifying nightmares.
As the book opens Emily is recovering in the hospital. A counselor suggests that Emily write down her feelings and tell her story. That maybe it would help her start to heal and help make sense of things. Though it seems impossible to make sense of something this horrible.
Emily thinks back to those moments in the water after the crash…
“I was 17 and I was going to die”
All around her were pieces of the plane and bodies. Emily is able to get to shore and wonders if she’s the only one alive. But then, she sees her best friend, Vivian (Viv) struggling in the water. She heads back in and drags Viv to shore. Four more students make their way out of the ocean and over to them. Nico, Derek, Ryan and Molly. Though they attend the same school, this group isn’t close. There are some very strained relationships among them. In fact some of them outright hate each other. But Emily is extremely thankful that Viv is with her.
We learn about each of the students and their interactions with each other through flashbacks from before the crash. The privileged students of Riverdale Academy High. Emily doesn’t come from money though, she is a scholarship student who works hard and studies. Not much time for anything else. But Emily has a secret. A secret that even her best friend doesn’t know.
Will she be able to accept what happened? That she survived when so many others didn’t? Is she suffering from survivor’s guilt or is there something she isn’t saying?
Why is Emily the only one who survived?
The author’s descriptions of what these teens endure while trying to survive the Amazon, were quite well-written. I was constantly thirsty, hungry, hot or cold. The harsh terrain and unpredictable weather. The insects and animals, lack of food and water. The characters were fairly well-developed, and I enjoyed reading how they interacted with each other. Dealing with horrible conditions and the erratic behavior of other people. The inevitable clashes between characters. Seeing some break under the pressure and others almost flourish. There were a few things that seemed implausible, but it didn’t really affect how I felt overall.
I honestly can’t imagine enduring what these characters went through. Some just give up while others find a strength they didn’t know they possessed. In the Amazon EVERYTHING changes. It doesn’t matter how good-looking you are, how rich you are, how popular you are. It’s about knowledge, instinct, endurance, and guts. Difficult choices have to be made. Is it selfishness or self-preservation?
FEEL ME FALL was an unpredictable, uncomfortable but satisfying read. While there were a few slow parts, the majority of the story flowed well. And honestly, as I got towards the end, I was completely engrossed. I read the final chapters that took me to an ending that, in my opinion, was pretty freaking awesome!
I recommend this book and look forward to reading more from this author.
Thank you, James Morris for a copy of this book for me to read in exchange for my honest review.